When I was very little and I mean this in the sense of being a kid as I am only 4ft 11, I wanted to be a singer, dancer, actor. My idols were Shirley Bassey, Doris Day, Elizabeth Taylor, Ginger Rogers oh and Sandie Shaw, loved the barefoot thing & still do.
I had a spell at middle school where we did dance drama, it was contemporary dance and in hindsight our teacher Nadine Senior was ahead of her time. The rule was do your lesson's and you could come to dance.....I loved it so would comply with the rules. As it came time to move to secondary school I didn't get in to Intake a school in Leeds the likes of Mel B went to after my time. The truth of it was I wasn't that good, enthusiasm doesn't equate to talent. This was a huge disappointment to me and I kind of lost my way, I didn't do any exam's and reading Jackie & painting your nails didn't result in any qualifications. So I left school with none.
When I left school I worked in W H Smith's and then at jewellery manufacturer's and seem to have lurched from job to job ever since. Some being more successful than other's, most of my sales jobs I have done very well in, having nice company cars, travelling, commission, bonuses and the like. I liked being suited & booted that was me. Since I got the kids I have had to cut my cloth accordingly, long hours and travelling weren't going to work and I really didn't want to put them in daycare all day.
Having being made redundant last year, I decided to take stock and really think about what I wanted to do, I know nearing 50 I should have had an idea by now, but I did realise what I really wanted to do, so I applied to a national bereavement organisation to become a volunteer. It has taken many months of them interviewing me, references, CRB checks but I have finally been accepted to attend a 6 month course which starts in September. I am really excited about this and so hope I am suited to this kind of work.
After all this time I finally know what I want to be when I grow up.
Wish me luck ;)